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Brandon and I went through a round of IVF at the end of June 2018. We knew going in that the chances were very low of having our own child (less than 5% due to my endometriosis), but we felt that we needed to try. I was given very large doses of hormones to give me the best chance possible and I was hopeful when they extracted two eggs. Unfortunately, neither egg fertilized, and our IVF was unsuccessful and completely devastating. I needed to take a break. I did not plan as long as it has been, but as you all know, we were hit with the news of Dylan’s diagnosis just about a month after. I will share in more detail about IVF and the rest of my fertility journey, but I wanted to let people know where we are today.
So… maybe this is how I have been able to make sense of things or make them right in my own mind, and hopefully helped my sister. My nature has always been to observe things and people around me, and all three of us sisters are painfully sensitive to the emotional climate of the room.
I was in a perpetual state of sadness with my own infertility, and now I can see the sense in it. If I would have had children of my own, I could not have been as emotionally available to Casey as I have been able to be. If this is the reason I have not been able to have children, it makes it mean something to me. Don’t get me wrong; I would be so very grateful and will be if that day comes. I still hope and pray for a child but, to be totally honest, my luster has been crushed by it all.
I truly don’t mean this to sound as sad as it does. It just makes more sense to me this way and somehow justifies it. It’s one cruelty of the world followed by a worse one. For me to move forward and still find a way to choose joy, I have to see the meaning in it all.
We are gearing back up for IVF again, hopefully with the help of Lindy’s eggs. We decided to wait for her rather than use a stranger once that option was back on the table. I am hopeful that 2020 is filled with miracles in our family.
I’ll never understand why some people are forced to suffer more than others or why any of this is happening but your ability to continually choose joy is inspiring and humbling. Hoping all of your miracles come true. ❤️❤️
Thank you so much Michelle ❤️❤️❤️
I was searching for the right words after reading Jamie’s post, and ….perfectly said, Michelle. Jamie, we are all thinking of you and family and love you very much.
Thank you Kate ❤️❤️❤️
Whatever the outcome your strength will always be with you. 😘
Thank you Janet 😘
I have often wondered since my last family visit how the fertility battle was going for you, Jamie. I wish there was an easy fix out there. Know that you & Brandon, your sweet little niece, and the rest of your family are in my prayers. Stay strong lovely lady!
Thank you Deleene! Lots of love to you and your family also ❤️
One thing is for sure: love. Lots and lots of love. It’s so very difficult to understand life’s whys. But, I am grateful for the grace and mercy of the Lord and for those that stand in support with us. Praying for miracles for you and for sweet Dylan and standing with you always. 💗💗💗
Thank you Amanda! 💗💗💗 always thinking of Avery and your family as well, you are all a great example of love.
Sending you love and hope for 2020. You have an amazing attitude towards all of the struggles and challenges you and your family have faced. What a gift you are to your sister. What an incredibly selfless act for you to put things on hold so you can be present to support your sister and her family through this horrific battle. How blessed they are.
I have only met you a few times Jamie, however your smile and love for children is incredible. How lucky your Nieces and nephews are to have you as an Aunt, and how lucky your sisters are to have you also.
May all your dreams come true in 2020.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Our daughter who struggled with infertility For 2 years is expecting in March. I have great hope for you!
Thank you Michelle, what incredibly kind words ❤️ Congratulations to your daughter! I love to hear success stories ❤️ we really appreciate all of your support.
Love you, Jamie! You have the best heart!!!
Thanks Angie! Love you ❤️
My niece tried to get pregnant for years, even going through IVF didn’t help. Finally went to a naturopath in Olympia. He did full workup and made some diet recommendations. She was so thankful for him. She is now the mother of Bronson, 1 yr old. Never give up hope. Can certainly find out his name for you if interested.
My niece tried to get pregnant for years, even going through IVF didn’t help. Finally went to a naturopath in Olympia. He did full workup and made some diet recommendations. She was so thankful for him. She is now the mother of Bronson, 1 yr old. Never give up hope. Can certainly find out his name for you if interested.
Thank you so much Vera ❤️ so happy to hear that your niece was able to have her son and love to hear stories of success – Hoping this is the year that my story turns into a success story 🙏